Sunday, April 22, 2012

fear

Tiny vessels along the scar on my nose are becoming more and more visible. It was just over a month ago that I had the ultrasound, which did not detect any AVM flow. Still, I panicked, my mind filled with "what ifs..." , fears, paranoia, and worse case scenarios. I know that remnants of an AVM left behind after surgery will grow- the post-op angiogram did not detect any AVM, just some abnormal capillary blush. However, I wonder if AVM can generate anew. It is good to have Dean to talk to, he always makes me feel calm.

I find that everything is good, as long as I live in the present, and count the blessings I have.

I read that Keith R. had his facial avm obliterated, no regrowth 8 years after surgery- makes me happy& hopeful.


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