Thursday, November 22, 2007
(photo by a friend)
5 hours after my last exam and I'm suffering from a headache that seems to originate from parts of my brain that are still protesting against the huge volume of information I tried to cram into my head in the past 3 days. I had 6 days to prepare for this exam yet the first three days were spent doing next to nothing. I couldn't start. The month long exam period has completely drained me. The information I need to memorize overwhelms, paralyzes, and depresses me. And I wonder what it would be like to do a university course that you absolutely love, that every minute spent studying is treasured, every assignment you have to do is relished.
And I'm sitting here, thinking about what I want to do over the next 2 months. Lots of plans as usual. I'm reading a book, marveling at the way it's beautifully written and feel that my mind has slowly opened again, stepping gingerly out of the shell it's trying to shut itself in as I tried to memorize lots of facts and info, much of which is completely useless once the exam period is over. Sometimes I feel that my university course (dentistry) has sapped every drop of creative energy out of me.